Hello there allies, archenemies and, everyone in between! This piece was something I wrote when I was 20 for a contest. I only won third place here (only 8 of us participated HAHAH) yet I still find this quite wonderful. This day is also supposed to be my thesis deliberation but welp. NCOVID 19 is such a cockblocker. Nevertheless, I firmly believe that #healthiswealth! Continue reading “Amalgam of Architecture | An Ode To My College Course”
Hello there allies, archenemies and, everyone in between! This little essay was something I wrote for a school project but wasn’t able to speak out for fear of crying HAHAH. This reminded me so much of the early struggles I have in college. Continue reading “Gilded Wishes | An Essay Inspired From The Twelve Dancing Princesses”
Hello there allies, archenemies and, everyone in between! As you all may or may not know, I’m quite a shameless HP fan. This little love poem was something I wrote when I was 19, I partly cringed reading this now but it still brings back happy memories. Happy Valentines Day to you all! Continue reading “A Day In Potions Class | A Little Love Poem”
Hello there allies, archenemies and, everyone in between! I wrote this little essay when I was quite emotional. It was at this point in my life that I felt burdened by my own friends, in a sense, I felt like the caretaker left to fend for herself. Continue reading “Caring for the Caretaker | An Essay”
Hello there allies, archenemies and, everyone in between! Welp, it’s been quite too long since I last posted anything at all. I’ve been neglecting my book blogging duties here and have even missed a blog tour specifically one that’s been organized by Caffeine Book Tours! Continue reading “What I Was Doing When I Wasn’t Book Blogging | I’m Back But Not Really”
Hello there allies, archenemies and, everyone in between! Today I’m sharing to you a non-book related blog post. I originally saw this by Sabs ^^ just click here to be redirected to her post. I joined this to listen more diversely every month partly because I have always been a music enthusiast who hasn’t branched out lately and partly because my architectural thesis is related to music so double kill mah friends hahahah. I hope you would like the songs here!
I really love the varying cadence of the first verse and especially in the part where it becomes a little bit faster later on! Also, that album art is gorgeous.
Aaaaaaahh I only recently discovered this acoustic duo hhhhnnggg I already love them okay??? Also, this reminded me of This Wild Life so much uwuu my soft heart.
This is such a cute and catchy song!! This was written and performed by Reese Lansangan, honestly, I feel like she’s the patron saint of music by book bloggers who love The Artidote and Booksale XD Her aesthetics are the bomb!
Of course, I have to add this to the list. I literally worship Clara Benin *sobs*
- Did you like some of the songs here?
- What are your current favorite songs? Any recommendations?
Hello there allies, archenemies and, everyone in between! It’s a new month once again and it’s the perfect time to fool and force myself to maintain healthy habits and impose order to my rather chaotic year. I do know that there’s a high possibility that I can’t be consistent with all the stuff that I’ll be writing here but welp, it makes me feel more accountable with my actions!
Hello there allies, archenemies and, everyone in between! Today is actually a free day for me since I permitted myself to not do or think about anything thesis related. When I started this blog I set it upon myself to write about life updates once in a while and anything about stuff OTHER THAN BOOKS. Which I kind of failed because apparently books = life???? So here’s the mandatory life update, plus I decided to write an update on my thesis progress every month because why not? HAHAHH Also, I just want to keep this blog alive while I’m not reading *sobs*
I’m in the middle of writing my architectural thesis and I am not ok.
Thesis robs you of valuable time to cultivate your passion projects and your precious reading time. Or is it? My tatay (father) says I just have to manage my time wisely (which I’m not good at??) and to not waste it on frivolous matters. HAHAHAH. I’m sorry tatay.
Writing isn’t a natural skill for me but I’ve honed it ever since fourth-year high school because I kind of like writing essays during exams. However, just because I know how to write now doesn’t mean that I don’t have insecurities on the quality of my output. Most of my classmates know that I have a knack for writing so I know they have expectations that I will consistently produce quality pieces. AND YES I ALSO WANT QUALITY BUT THE EXPECTATIONS IS KIND OF CRIPPLING ME. Har har. Obviously, they’re not explicitly pressuring me BUT BUT BUT.
Right now, we’ve passed our first draft and so far so good but I AM STILL SEETHING FROM MY OWN CRITICISMS. Because honestly, what if people can’t appreciate or worse–comprehend my work? Maybe I’m getting too confident with my writing that I get blinded by my flaws? IS THIS THE RIGHT PROCESS? Do people think I’m arrogant or just humble bragging because of the lack of my bragging skills and my lax demeanor when it comes to writing? What if writing this post is actually a form of humble bragging in itself or just me flexing my thesis? HAHAHAHAHHFCK.
Honestly, it just keeps on piling up but my self-righteous ass kind of deflected them which is also bad in some ways. BECAUSE WHAT IF I HAVE IMPOSTOR SYNDROME OR EXPERIENCING THE DUNING-KRUGER EFFECT? (It’s when you think you’re competent when in fact you AREN’T) Man am I tired of myself. I am not ok in the context of my internal and external pressures in my life BUT my mental health is okay, so you don’t have to worry guys!
I have doubts in maintaining this blog as well as announcing a mini-hiatus because I am that indecisive.
I have planned on announcing a mini hiatus for my blog but honestly, I feel kind of scared pushing that “pause” button. Partly because I am just starting to take root in the book community, gaining new friends, and more acknowledgment from bloggers alike and partly because I’m scared that I will stop blogging indefinitely if I find it too hard to write again #burnout.
So right now, I’ve decided to keep it steady (since I still have blog tours) and that I have to accept the fact that I wouldn’t be able to produce new content consistently here. So to compensate, I’ll master the art of blog hopping and it’s been nice so far!
No blog tours for now and I’m semi sad on this matter.
I’ve been participating in a lot of blog tours lately and this is easily one of the best things in book blogging. Mainly because I get to interact with more book bloggers and I am actively promoting books! I mean that’s just a heartwarming activity for an avid reader. I have to thank Caffeine Book Tours by Shut Up, Shealea for the countless book tours I’ve participated because of her. (Join her mailing list as a coffee bean to get updates on upcoming tours as well!) So welp, no blog tours just yet Divine. At least I don’t have that added responsibility on my plate.
Edit: I wrote this a while ago with the firm belief that I WON’T be joining any blog tour but in a span of a week after writing this I’ve already gotten myself tangled w/ 2 blog tours (WHICH HAS FILIPINO REP SO SPARE ME)
Will the book blogging community forget me? Damn straight vine, you are such an attention whore.
I have this crippling fear that everybody would suddenly forget me AND YES I KNOW THAT IT’S WRONG and I started this blog as a personal one but I think it’s pretty normal to feel this way too? My feelings are valid okay? Even if they need to change. Also, I AM NOT AN ATTENTION WHORE, I’d like to clear that up just in case hahahaha. I’ve just gotten so used to the constant validation and empowering community here that it’s a scary prospect to lose them all.
The pressure of eloquently writing my thesis while maintaining this blog and my duties for the school publication just numbs me right now.
So in case you didn’t know guys, I was previously the Features Editor and the Associate Editor-in-Chief of our school publication and it is actually thanks to my accumulated reading and practice in reviewing books that I have gained writing skills. So even if I’m not already in the editorial board this year, my pubmates still rely on me to produce quality articles for the magazine and guide them. Which I am more than happy to provide (pub duties is also one of my passions aside from book blogging) but THE PRESSURE IS TRIPLE. I have thesis, I have ze blog (which I’m still not willing to take a break) and of course my beloved publication team. I don’t know how to solve this problem just yet, but writing it all out clears my head on this matter.
I guess I’ll just have to wing it and really instill my tatay’s words of wisdom. Stop wasting valuable time. AND PRIORITIES!
Initially, I thought I was going to cry while writing this out instead I feel much lighter right now. Writing is cathartic my friends, and nope I am not announcing a mini hiatus! HAHAHA I love this platform so much.
Thank you for reading this “life update” of mine and stay tuned on my next blog post on my thesis progress! Will I spill all my insecurities once again or rant about my incompetence? We’ll both know for sure next month!
- Do you have some tips for a struggling book blogger like me? IF YES, H E L P. I’m seriously asking for help right now. S A V E M E.
- What are your preconceived notions on an architectural thesis?
- Will you pray for my sanity? If yes, then thank you!
I’d like to thank Lili from Lili’s Blissful Pages for tagging me with this! She’s very welcoming for new book bloggers and she’s also one of the moderators of the online book club, Diverse Divers in Goodreads. Please do check out this club (I’m also a member) and you’ll definitely have your fair share of diverse books from diverse voices! I would also like to thank Anthony from Keep Reading Forward for creating this tag. 😊
- All prompts must be answered.
- All answers must be honest
- Tag 1-12 people
- Link back to the tag post
- Credit the tag creator
1.) Santa Claus – A Gift you received or want this year.
I would say that the best gift I received this year are books but they’re too obvious HAHAH so instead, I’d answer as to what gift that I want this year. It would probably be my old model of Ray Ban eyeglasses which I misplaced on September 2017, and my parents still don’t know that I’ve lost it so yup! (IT’S SO EXPENSIVE BTW) I need to redeem it before I get caught XD Also, I’d like to have a black watch this year as well since I lost it also this year. Dammit vine! Yeah, I know, it’s pretty ironic that I call myself a sentimental but don’t even keep my stuff safe.
2.) Mrs. Claus – a favorite Holiday Treat to have Every year
DUH. Of course MACARONI SALAD BTCHES!!! I think this one could be pretty applicable for every Filipino, may it be on birthdays, death anniversaries, and Christmas. It’s a staple, and my nanay is definitely the undisputed overlord of macaroni salad! It’s not an exaggeration mah friends, it’s just the unbiased naked truth HAHAHAH.
3.) Ghost of Christmas Past – A Holiday memory from your past
I remember when I was in my first year in college, we were required to finish our drawing exam plates for the Christmas break in our Design subject, and oh boy was it stressful. I did not enjoy the vacation at all but it was also a funny experience since I was both doing my plates by the end and the start of the year. I stopped drawing when it was 12:00 AM and happily shouted “Happy New Year” for 3 minutes to my fam then went back to work ahahaha. (I need that kind of motivation back in my life right now)
4.) Buddy the Elf – a Holiday song you like to sing each Holiday season.
Christmas in our Hearts by Jose Mari Chan. Idk, probably every Filipino crank the volume up when this plays on the local radio. It’s actually more of a recurring meme every time it’s Ber Months hahahah and it’s just stuck.
Welp! HAHAHAH there are too many of these iconic memes lurking in the net.
5.) Misfit Toys – An unpopular toy you really wanted to get one year.
Toys??? HMMMM hahahahahah I don’t like toys though hahahahhaha and my brain just keep conjuring inappropriate stuff so nope. I don’t need one.
6.) Grinch – A moment when your heart grew three sizes
I went to the Ben&Ben concert this year and it was such a very heartwarming experience. I was with my friends, saw some acquaintances in school, friends in other schools, relatives etc. I never thought that a concert could be so much more than just a throng of people singing along to the band. It’s such an immersive feeling and I can consider it as one of the best moments in my life.
7.) Jack Frost – A tradition you like to do every winter
Well we don’t have winter here in Ph HAHAHAH but we do have a tradition every Christmas. Instead of doing the usual Noche Buena during Christmas Eve, we skip it and celebrate exactly on December 25. My parents want to have some privacy when it’s Christmas eve (plus it’s their wedding anniversary).
8.) Hero Boy – A memory you believed in a Holiday Wish/Miracle
Idk??? Although I did believe once that there was an actual Santa and just realized that he was not real when there was a decline in my gifts HAHAHHA. I knew for a fact that Santa was consistent with giving me expensive gifts, it was then that I realized that my tatay was the one who actually gave us the gifts under the Christmas tree and not Santa. After that, I didn’t expect any expensive gifts anymore and juts became grateful with every little thing my tatay gave us. Also, my favorite gift that he gave me was an Encyclopedia with 100 facts and whatnot. I got into it so much that I memorized these useless facts AHAHAHH I really felt so smart at that time, but tbh this was also one of the many factors why I love books.
9.) Cindy Lou Who – a Favorite Holiday Tradition
I really don’t care for traditions??? hahahha but I always demand macaroni salad for the Holidays.
10.) Frosty the Snowman – A memory involving snow or a memory you would like to have involving snow
WE DON’T HAVE SNOW HERE SADLY. But if there was, I’ll probably be making a snow angel, a snowman (duh), snowball fight, watch snowflakes float outside the window, AND FINALLY, read a book while I’m all covered up in sheets while the fire is crackling in the hearth and it’s snowing outside. Totally a cliche that I want to happen in my own life!
11.) Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer – A holiday activity you like doing.
Probably just greeting “Merry Christmas” to everyone in social media AND ALSO THE CHANCE TO CHAT MY CRUSH AHAHAHHA. (Unfortunately, I don’t seem to have a crush this year though)
11.) Ebenezer Scrooge – “Bah, Humbag!” A favorite holiday saying or Quote
“One can never have enough socks,” said Dumbledore. “Another Christmas has come and gone and I didn’t get a single pair. People will insist on giving me books.”
I would probably tag others but I don’t know any bloggers yet so anybody who wants to do this tag are free to participate! Anyway, Merry Christmas!!!!
“For last year’s words belong to last year’s language
And next year’s words await another voice.
And to make an end is to make a beginning.”
I’ve grown accustomed with the static permanence in my life that I sometimes fail to acknowledge the beauty in pursuing uncharted lands and in the uncomfortable shift of progress. This 2018, I’ve experienced a little bit of the bad and a whole lot more of the good. Maybe it has to do with karma balancing the woes of last year, or I have to blame the books I read that drastically changed my outlook, or it could simply be an automatic response to all the pent-up creativity and indignance I have in me. Whichever it is, it certainly propelled me to do and experience a lot of great things this year.
And by great things, I meant thought-provoking and euphoric times that made me really feel thankful to be alive. In this dreary country I live in, I think it’s a pretty great achievement; and when you reach beyond your wee teen years, it’s very empowering to know that you’ve channeled a lot of your voice in different forms. This could probably be one of the reasons why I decided to make this blog.
I have to admit that I’m a very impulsive and inconsistent person so I have no doubt that maintaining this platform would be a 50/50 priority. But I guess I would never run out of things to say when it comes to books and reading. I’m proud to say that I’m a reader and a writer, although the latter had taken me so long to admit to myself. This blog would be a channel for me to share more of my passion and my two cents for every interest of mine; from art, to architecture, to literature, to music, and to life in general. This is, after all, a new beginning for the end of my very best year.
“Make the most of yourself….for that is all there is of you.”